Starshine's Ramblings

My Top 35...20 Guys...

2009-11-22T10:16:38Z

Yeah, so, I haven't been on livejournal for a while...lots has happened, I suppose...Gerry's birthday and the New Moon premeire, which I can talk about another post. I love the internet. Even if I don't get to see interviews of Gerry, for New Moon, etc etc..all I have to do is look for the interview and I find it right away...Just saw Gerry's interview with Jonathan Ross...at least on BBC America they showed it on tv last night..anyway, on to my top 35 guys, and maybe a reason or two why...let's see if I can think of that many! haha

1. Gerard Butler--duh, if you didn't know this was coming, you just haven't been paying attention at all! lol There's lots of reasons Gerry's first, pick one and run with it. lol
2. Leonardo DiCaprio--Before Gerry, it was all about Leo, so he's second
3. Robert Pattinson--yeah, I'm gonna have to go with him--he reminds me so much of Leo--it's like going back ten years, with an English accent, and musical ability. lol
4.Henry Cavill--I'm sure they'll be lots of foriegners on this list, and Henry's only the third one lol I picked him because everytime I see him on The Tudors, I automatically say "He's so cuuttee", spontaneously, of course haha
5. Tom Hardy--I loved Wuthering Heights, what can I say?
6. Alexander Skarsgard--After Gerry, of course, then Rob, lol, Alexander is my favorite vampire :)
7. Ryan Kwanten--again, with the accents already!
8. Eric Bana--I remember him in Troy...my first foray into foriegn actors, he actually made me not care about looking at Brad Pitt. lol
9. Olivier Martinez--the sexiest Frenchman on the planet haha
10. Jeffery Dean Morgan--because I loved him with an Irish accent in P.S. I Love You and even more as Denny in Grey's Anatomy
11. Justin Chambers--Speaking of Grey's Anatomy...I love how Justin in real life is the total opposite of Alex on the show lol
12. Eric Dane--before when he still had his goatee, he reminded me so much of Leo, I always had to take a second look at him to make sure he was someone else, even before I saw Grey's Anatomy lol
13. Clive Owen--his character in Closer was so hot to me, I can't explain it...
14.George Clooney--I've never even watched his movies, honest, well besides Ocean's 11, but in interviews, he reminds me so much of Gerry, that I have to add him to the list
15. Jonathan Rhys Meyers--you can't watch three seasons of The Tudors and not have a stray thought here or there about him...preferably something to do with Charles Brandon in the mix as well lol I also loved August Rush.
16. Tim Daly--I had such a major crush on him when I was younger lol
17. Julian McMahon--The main reason to watch Nip/Tuck
18. Daniel Sunjata--one of the many reasons to watch Rescue Me. :)
19. Channing Tatum--I'm looking forward to seeing the Dear John movie...
20. David Sutcliffe--Loved him as Christopher in Gilmore Girls

I'll come up with 15 more, I'm sure..but this was hard! lol

My Greatest Weakness

2009-10-21T02:01:33Z

It matters! And I knew about the group...I need to get out more. hahaha I don't belong to it though, honest.

(Grr @ this video..the actual interview wouldn't play so I am stuck with this one...but it's the gist of what's said after the break...if you want to see it go to MTV.com)

I was innocently trying to check email and look and see what had to be done for school tomorrow night and I saw this blaring at me..well something Gerry says in this clip. I couldn't concentrate, but I got through it. lol All I'm gonna say is, someone should be having sex with Gerry! hahaha

I've had a totally busy day, apparently. Well, it really started last night. I spent time with my close friend last night until midnight because she was going to get married this morning. We laughed, we cried, and we had a really great conversation. I got home by 12:15am and then I stayed awake until 1:30am. My close friend wanted me at the chapel at 9:45am, so I slept until like 7am and I left and the traffic was so busy I was almost fifteen minutes late, but I didn't miss much. We went out to eat afterwards and I went back to her new house to talk. I told her I had to go grocery shopping, do laundry and find out what I had to have done for school tomorrow night. So I left. I came home and I started on my laundry. I went online to innocently look at the student website, and I came across the Alexa Chung headlines about Gerry. lol After I figured out the homework, I went downstairs and I slipped and fell on some water left on the tile floor! It scared the crap out of me! I scraped my right knee and my left foot and right foot, and now I have two big lumps on my right knee. This happened like at 4:45pm and two hours later I'm still shaking and my body is still in shock and I'm all lightheaded..yet I made it to the laptop. hahaha So that's what's new with me.

Speaking of "The Butler Did It," a couple of weeks ago, I was at Kmart and right now, with all the stuff going on with me, I can't remember why lol, but I was there, and I was looking at purses. There was this purse called "The Butler' and the tagline was "every woman needs a butler in their life." I laughed. Just thought I would share.

Gerry on SNL, 10/17/09

2009-10-19T09:17:49Z

I'll never look at Beauty and the Beast the same! lol You are a beauty Gerbear! hehe

Ok, so this skit makes entirely no sense, with James Franco thrown in for no reason. Gerry, on the other hand, is hot despite the bad wig and goatee...and omg @ his tongue! hahaha

As always I love Gerry's accent. Hopefully he's never wasted all that on a prostitute...lol..and if he has I really don't want to know. rofl

Ok, if anyone could make cottage cheese sexy it's Gerry. lol And if I was Gerry's secretary not much would get done either...lol And I don't need to say he looks hot in the suit. :)

I always wanted to know what it would be like if Gerry was Braveheart. I swear, if he was American and not Scottish, what would they have to laugh about? I about died laughing when he used a British accent though. The still pictures are so cute!

Ok, I was staring at his arms the whole skit, but mischa8 said she stared at his hairy legs, so I had to look again. lol I'm still a little disappointed about Gerry's whole costume..haha

Yeah, I didn't add the alien one. lol I wanted to find the opening where he sang Music of the Night, but I couldn't find it. You can watch the whole episode on NBC.com of course.

Gerry Loves His Cupcakes

2009-10-18T05:03:31Z

So, of course I went to see Law Abiding Citizen last night. I went alone on purpose so I could concentrate on what I was thinking more than looking for my friends' reactions. I thought it was a very good movie. The only part that was hard to watch was the part he videotaped, other than that, I liked it.

I'm looking forward to seeing Saturday Night Live tonight.

I am doing well with my progress closer to the surgery. I've lost 7 pounds altogether so I only have three more to go. I have decided to see another doctor--the last one and I, well we didn't have an arguement, but I was fed up. So I'm seeing another one. Hopefully that doesn't mess up all my work so far. But I've been losing weight, like I said, since I made that decision. I don't believe my doctor really wanted me to have the surgery. That's fine, but it's my body. He doesn't have to live with the excess weight. I've been in therapy for about a month now, counseling I mean, and I've been talking about my feelings, and I have been noticing what triggers me and while I don't catch it every time, obviously I have noticed and I am losing weight because of it. It's more of a natural weight loss than anything else. I need to workout on a more regular basis. I don't know why I put it off so much. So that's my next hurdle to overcome.

I could talk about other stuff I guess, but that's what's new.

A Different View

2009-10-01T18:04:54Z

I was watching tv this morning and I came across The View. Heidi and Spenser are on and they are actually airing their problems in the bedroom to national/international tv. Heidi is a guest host, I guess, and the rest of the hosts are egg the talk of it on, like it is anyone's business but their own. Heidi seems like she's talking about it because they are being so forceful and want to talk about it. It's clear that they should be talking to a therapist about trust issues, but why is that anyone's business but their own? I really don't care if they have sex or not. It doesn't change my life, but it does change theirs. Even Amy Brennaman told her to keep her marriage private and separate from the media. Thank God someone told her and it was more of a reprimand than anything else.

Another opinion I had was of Kirk Cameron talking about 65% of college professors being either atheist or agnostic who promote evolution onto their students. I didn't realize that the percentage was so high, but I wouldn't dispute it with my own experiences of college professors in the past. Of course, Joy was all critical of what Kirk Cameron had to say. Whoopi was saying how these are college students who have the ability to figure out their own view of faith. I believe though, that college students are trying to break away from their parents' point of view and create or mutate their own ideas about faith and morals. Then you have the college professors who really want to have a forum, a platform, to talk about their views, which are usually agnostic, atheist, that's the truth and the combination is, I believe, the reason why there are so many young people who don't know what they believe.

I went to Catholic schools from the time I was little up until I went to college. I didn't know how blessed I was to have this kind of positive influence of faith in my life at such a young age. I didn't appreciate it until I went to college. It really shaped my faith, solidified it, and made me firm on what I believe about faith. When I went to college I know I had at least one argument with an English professor, the head of the English department no less, about why every piece of prose he assigned had something to do with sex, when I personally found other ideas in it. He basically told me I was wrong, and marked my papers down and I was livid. I told him I didn't realize that English was Math and could be correct or incorrect. I stood my ground and told him off in front of the whole class because I wasn't going to give into his liberal viewpoint that he forced opon all of us.

The years spent in Catholic schools gave me the strength to know that in my heart I was standing up for the morals and values that I believe. Not everyone is going to be a Christian, but if you are a Christian, please don't let what liberals say be the end all be all of the story. Put your views out there. Don't be afraid or ashamed. The media has become more and more liberal in its viewpoints but don't let it lessen your resolve.

Ok, I'll get off my soapbox for now.

Just a Little Something

2009-10-01T08:30:27Z

Ok, so, it's not perfect, but I feel better. I created a Wuthering Heights banner. It's not great, but it will satisfy me for a while. lol

There's a guy in my class that I like. I think he knows, and he seems to make sure he talks about how single and cute he is during breaks. I guess that sounds kind of arrogant on his part, typed out here, but it's kind of cute in real life. I pretty much think he knows because he keeps mentioning these things. As I've said before, I'm not the type of person to say something, as my friends like mischa8 know, so most likely the next two weeks will come and go and nothing will happen. I just wanted to type that out somewhere. I can't really say that on facebook, because there would be too many questions. Oh, and I had to give a presentation tonight in class, and of course, I had to stand right next to where he was sitting. lol I know it's nothing, but I thought I would say it somewhere. He'll never know for sure. lol

The Real Reason

2009-09-30T21:23:20Z

I guess the real reason I'm irritated is because 'the German' is giving me the silent treatment. It's always been off and on with him. One day, it's all great and wonderful, and everything seems like there's a future in store, and the next he is being silent and I don't know what's going on in his head. I'll admit, half the time I'm not sure if it's the language barrier, or if he really is being silent. He speaks English and understands English very well. I go back and forth with what I want to do with him. I've known him for about a year and a half, and there are days when he seems to be very interested in visiting me, etc, etc, and then absolutely nothing! I have him on my facebook profile. If I delete him, then he's chasing after me wondering what's gone wrong, but if I keep him there, he's barely speaking to me. It's very frustrating.

Before you say just block him, my therapist told me I never let men into my life, on purpose. It's true, I usually tell them to go to hell before a relationship gets started. But, with 'the German' I have really tried, I mean really, tried to make it work. Almost to the point where I'm like, "why am I even trying?" Then when I do delete him, and cut him off, that's when he tells me he's all invested in whatever this is that we have. It's so aggravating! I have my best friend telling me to just give him a chance, but I wanted to tell him to go to hell a long time ago. It's my trademark. I'd like to believe I could let one man in, the man that counts, but this just isn't working for me. There is a part in me that wants to see what happens, but if he's not as invested as I am, then what's the point?

I kind of want to cut my losses, but then I think it's been a year and a half, and what happens to all that time? Does it just dissappear? I'm tired of men that don't follow through and don't know what they want. 'The German' reminds me of another guy in my life, another on and off relationship that wasted 8 years of my life, (who happens to be married for almost 4 years now, with a kid) so I must be doing something to attract this type of guy, right? I just don't know what I'm doing wrong. I want a man that knows exactly what he wants, where he wants to be in five years, and follows through on what he says. Follow through is big for me. It's a big request. I'm tired of settling.

I guess I've answered my own question, but it still hurts my feelings. My therapist says the reason why I don't have anyone worthy of being in my life is because I run away before they hurt me, because I'm afraid of rejection. I don't believe I deserve better. It's true I make guys jump through hoops to prove that they care about me, and usually guys give up on the idea of a relationship with me because I make it so hard to get through my wall I have built around me. I have to change that.

I also think there is something to be said of 'the German' as well. He's in Germany. We joke that he's 6,500 miles away. I think there is a reason for that. I used to, as of yesterday, be signed up for various singles websites, including EHarmony. Whenever they find someone in my town or close to my town, immediately there is something wrong with them, and I usually close the match. Coincidence? I'm not so sure anymore. I believe that 'the German' is a long shot. Not only is he 6,500 miles away, I met him online, which is known to have issues. I do have questions about him, and I'm not entirely sure that if he moved here, for me, if I would have issues with him too. I have issues with him already, so him being here would probably just intensify it.

I think I want to have a relationship with someone in town. I guess that's a funny statement. But how do you have a relationship with a man when for years you've built up a wall around yourself not to get hurt? I shut down guys before they even get started. It's my habit. As it was, the guy I had an off and on relationship with had to really convince me that he wanted to spend time with me. He wanted more than what I could give. I think he gave up in the end because he knew I wasn't ready to let him in to his life fully by being his wife.

I love the idea of sharing my life with someone. I realize it will never be perfect; there will always be issues involved; that's human nature. I am coming to a point where all my defense mechanisms I have used over the years to keep myself from pain and rejection have worked too well, and now I am lonely from my own devices. Maybe that's one reason I love Gerry. Gerry can always be perfect and he can't hurt me, not really. I'm tired of being alone. I have a fear that is really unfinished thoughts. Like my therapist said yesterday, "Fear is only about the future. Even if I have a gun to your head, you're scared about what's going to happen next. You aren't afraid of the present."

I don't know how to let down the wall I've had up for at least 22 years.

On the upside, it's a beautiful autumn day today. lol

Getting a Little Irritated

2009-09-30T05:35:27Z

Since I saw the 2009 version of Wuthering Heights, I have been trying to find a banner or something, anything, that I could find to put on my journal. Absolutely nothing! I'm getting a little irritated at this point, to tell the truth. Yes, I have graphics programs, two in fact, but really, I don't have time or the patience to come up with something for myself. I guess that's my own sob story. I've seen the 1992 version and while it's still very good, it's just not the same. lol Sigh.

Stop me! Another British Actor..I'm Outta Control! hahaha

2009-09-26T06:34:01Z

I was watching RocknRolla yesterday, and I reminded myself that I thought the guy who played "Handsome Bob," Tom Hardy, was in fact actually handsome. He's not Gerry of course, but we've gone over this already. I looked on YouTube and I found he is in a new version of Wuthering Heights as Heathcliff. Tell me if you stare at his lips. lol I guess it's a television special in the UK, but hey it's really good. I've always wanted to read the book, but I could never get past the first couple of pages because it's so dark and broody. Actually it reminds me a lot of Phantom of the Opera. I might actually pick up the book now that I understand the characters better. Enjoy!

Oh, I almost forgot, since I have wonderful friends who actually know how to design layouts, can you make me a layout based on this version of Wuthering Heights? Think of it as a late birthday present. lol :)

Booty Boot Camp

2009-09-11T08:22:37Z

OMFG @ Craig Ferguson's aligator puppet..he's freakin' hillairous, but no news there. :)

Yeah, I haven't posted in a while. I've been busy with school, and the gym mainly. I've got a personal trainer, and she's trying to kick my ass, literally. The first day she asked if I wanted her to channel Jillian Michaels, to which I said, "No, you dont need to yell and scream at me..positive reinforcement is good." She was funny when she said that men hate the angry face because it emasculates them. lol That first session I actually tossed my cookies..yeah she's hardcore. Now she's added me to her friend list on Facebook. She's good. As I found out, I literally had the chip bag in my hand, on Monday night, Labor Day, and I had to tell my neices, "Oh, I guess I should put these down." rofl She means business. I pay her the big bucks to mean business, so really I mean business, but you know what I mean. lol Everytime I workout with her, lifting weights, I always think of Gerry training for 300..yeah, I my brain always comes back to Gerry. lol Last night I swam laps in the gym pool. I don't know how many calories I burned, but I was proud of myself especially since I had a long day on my feet at work.

This morning I woke up congested and I have had a fever ever since. I was supposed to go to "Booty Boot Camp" this evening, but decided against it. I've been to the class before, my trainer leads it, and it's hard as hard as it sounds. lol It takes a lot to be a fit person, I'm learning. My trainer did turn me on to protein shakes, for after my workout to replenish my muscles, at least that's what she claims, and it seems to be helping. So it's a tip if you're lifting weights on a regular basis.

Some of you on my f-list are looking to lose weight and tone up, my suggestion to anyone trying to be more motivated is to sign up at SparkPeople. It's completely free, and they have a food tracker, cardio and weight tracker and tons of other members who are looking to meet the same goals you are. It's helped me.

My birthday is September 20th and I'll be 32 years old. Now I understand why people don't like their birthdays anymore. I'm starting to feel old. lol Maybe in a couple of months I'll be a hot 32 year old now that I have a trainer...positive thinking. lol

Oh! I saw Gamer..loved Gerry, of course, but I didn't really like the movie. I found it mildly intriguing to see Gerry's character killing the character who is on Dexter. He's a whack job on that show. lol

Oh, I'm on episode 9 of season three of Grey's Anatomy. Eric Dane totally looks like Leonardo DiCaprio. Have I said this before? I feel like I've said this before. lol So I have the rest of season 3 and all of season 4 before it starts on what? September 16th? I hope I can do it. lol Oh, I love Kate Walsh by the way. She's making me rethink having the red hair again. She's so pretty. lol

Vintage Gerbear

2009-08-21T05:18:22Z

Sigh, I love Gerry.

Dr McDreamy, Charles Brandon, Dr McSteamy and the Men of Big Brother

2009-08-05T07:13:12Z

I just started watching Grey's Anatomy, in between all the work and school I'm involved in at the moment. Yes, I've added yet another series to be interested in seeing.

Maybe it was an inspired choice, seeing as I saw The Ugly Truth a little over a week ago. I have been wanting to see it for years, and I actually wanted to see it when it first came out, but, you know, life happens, and you get busy, and then you don't see the first couple of episodes, even though you've heard they are great, and you move on in life.

I really like the show. Actually, I'm really just waiting to see Henry Cavill in all his Charles-Brandon-goodness on the Tudors, but since that's months away, in January, I have to find something else to amuse me while (whilest? all these English actors [Henry, Rob and Jason] are starting to affect my brain I think hahaha) I wait.

Everything was going great, until the last episode, or what I think was the last episode of the first season. Patrick Dempsey's character, Dr. Shepard aka Dr. McDreamy, is married! Just wrong! I was floored. So wrong. He was so perfect. That's why I realize now, but you know, it sucked. lol

There is an actor on that show, well not in the first season obviously, Eric Dane I think, who plays another doctor and every time I look at him, I always mistake him for Leonardo DiCaprio. He probably hears that everywhere he goes. lol I can't wait until he shows up. lol

There is another series that I think is funny...it's called Hung. Yes, Hung. The actor, who knows who he is, is really good looking.

Which leads me to another hot guy. Russell on Big Brother. Well, Jeff is hot too, but Russell. Geez, all this testosterone-inspired tv watching..rofl I was watching Showtime about a week ago, and Big Brother After Dark was on, and I watched for three hours because I think Russell is hot. I don't even watch it on CBS! All they do is bicker, argue, and whine for three hours..anyone who likes Big Brother and doesn't have Showtime, all you're missing is a bunch of whiney babies that need to get out of that house. They've all turned on each other. I'm glad Jeff and Jordan don't fight like Russell and Chima. All least they are the sane ones. lol Last night I was literally like, "I could never live with these people...I couldn't take all this drama!" Personally, I think the reason Chima seemingly hates Russell so much now is because she really did start to like him in the beginning. I'm not sure if she said what he said she said to him, as I am a lady lol, but I know he was telling the truth when he said she kissed him first, because I seemingly saw it with my own eyes. Last week, she was all over him, and he wasn't not appreciating it..but for her to say she wasn't well, she's just trying to save face. Obviously, I'm on Russell's side. I think Jeff has the mystery power, and God love him, he seems to be the only one who wants peace in the house. If Russell is eliminated next week, that's the end of my Big Brother obsession, just so whoever's in charge knows him not being there is a deal breaker for me. I want Russell to win. Or like Jordan. Or Jeff. But I'll stop watching if Russell isn't there. I can't take all the drama. Oh yeah, Jessie..enough with the muscles already rofl

Oh, yeah, I almost forgot! Ellen Pompeo and Rene Zellweger should play sisters at some point...they have the same smile. I would believe it. lol

http://beta.abc.go.com/shows/greys-anatomy/
http://www.sonypictures.com/movies/theuglytruth/
http://www.sho.com/site/tudors/home.do
http://www.hbo.com/hung/

Let's Blow This Popsicle Stand!

2009-07-30T22:16:09Z

I'm moving August 1st! I found a great, modern, completely new apartment for a great price, so I'm going to take it. I've been looking around for a while now, and it's such a great price for a luxury apartment in a safe part of town that I'm just going to go ahead and do it! I'm so excited! I think I'm going to adopt a kitten too, but first I have to move in. Keep me in your thoughts and prayers..if you do that. lol

OMG, Gerry (Butler) You Did Not Just Say That!

2009-07-25T02:53:35Z

As you can tell, I just got back home from watching The Ugly Truth. What did I think, you ask? First of all, it was really funny. I really liked it. Although, I did spend the entire two hours saying, "OMG Gerry, you did not just say that!" I couldn't stop laughing. I always knew he had those jokes somewhere inside him, and I figured one day I'd see that side, but wow, I didn't know how to take it! lol Very funny, but the things that came out of his mouth! lol There was one scene, which I'm not going to say, that I practically blushed because he could have been talking about me..I'm not going to say which scene, because you have to pay for the ticket...yeah, that's right. You don't want my commentary. *wink wink* But it was so funny! When they said he stayed vulgar the entire time they were shooting the movie...it made me wonder what else came out of his potty mouth! lol I was practically crying, I was laughing so hard. lol

I think Gerry has finally gone to the other side, if you know what I mean. I think he's finally crossed over into Hollywood like everyone else. I loved the early years when he was a special little secret, a diamond in the rough, but he's really worked hard, and I think he may have just crossed over into being a popular leading man. He's been a leading man in my eyes for over four years now, but I think the rest of the world is finally catching up. Everyone from work and even my friends have said, "Yeah, your Gerry is very cute!" To which I'm like, "I've been saying that for almost five years! You just noticed it now?" lol He doesn't need his tight knit group of fans now...I guess those days are over. I'm glad that he let us all in when he didn't have to...he's on to bigger and better just like the rest of them.(This is where he's supposed to say, "Of course, I'll never forget my wonderful fans"..just a suggestion lol) I'm so happy for him, and proud. I guess I've said that before. I feel like he's now graduated high school or something... from kindergarten, elementary school, junior high, to high school and now he doesn't need the support he once did. He's off on his own now. Well, not really, but that's the kind of feeling I'm feeling right now. Kind of bittersweet. Estatic he's achieving his goals and dreams...for him, and a little, I don't know if I would call it sad personally, but, a little lost, I guess. Just weird.

Older fans would get this reference...throughout the whole five seconds of the salsa dancing, I flashed back in my mind to that other dance...when he wasn't so famous. Although, he made it look like salsa dancing with him would be so much fun! Sigh.

When he came back, the look on his face...I said softly.."if you cry, I'm going to." He didn't but there was a moment when I "awed" him. I didn't cry, but if he did, I would have started. lol

My Gerbear is a full-fledged movie star. Makes me want to cry, in a good way. :)

So What Have We Learned Today, Children? Gerard Butler Fans are Educated as well as...

2009-07-22T07:41:03Z

I'm finally finished with my part of the team paper for my organizational behavior class this week. We had to create an organization using at least one of five theories the teacher suggested and apply them to an administration staff, production workers, and salespeople. It has to be 1400 to 2100 words, but there are five of us, and we tend to overwrite so all we need is 280 to 460 each, I think. I hope so. lol I wrote 474 words and then I gave up. lol One of my team members, who is formatting the final draft, really has a handle on all of the theories. I know and understand them, but she took an organizational psychology class a couple of classes ago so it is all still fresh in her mind. ( The one benefit from teams is I've probably learned more from my teammate than I have from the teacher..who is a organizational management psychologist btw....that's sad isn't it? lol ) What the difference between organizational behavior and organizational psychology I'll never know. When I told people my next class was organizational behavior, they looked at me strange and asked me what it was. I know how to explain it now...the management of organizations using behavior theories, but I'm not even a management major technically. I'm getting my degree in human resources managment, which is just down the road from what I really want, a master's in counselling. The last three and a half weeks I have felt more like Bill Gates than Dr Drew, truthfully. So, what have we learned today, children? Gerard Butler fans are educated as well as sexy and beautiful. I had to go there. Positive reinforcement. lol

Something I learned this week: Lexus has designed the buttons of it's cars to be able to be used with acrylic nails. Interesting, huh? Impress your friends. lol

It's obvious I can't wait until Friday, isn't it? My friends are going to see The Ugly Truth without me..well at least some of them. THEN, get this, they said they didn't know I was going to see it. I almost died laughing. At least my best friend knows better. lol Geez.

Ok, off to watch Craig Ferguson, my second favorite Scotsman. :)

Don't Count Your Chickens

2009-07-20T00:36:46Z

Hey Everybody. Sorry I haven't been posting as much. really I have, but on my personal blog, the ones my real life friends, you know what I mean, can see. A lot is going on in my life right now. I know I say that everytime, and I feel like a broken record. I'm sorry. I'm still here. Really.

What to talk about?

Well, the big news I talked about posts ago is that I'm having surgery very soon. Possibly before September. It's a big step for me and I'm excited yet nervous about it.

I'm still working hard at school. I have an individual paper each week, most weeks, and a group paper every week. I feel like I'm doing school work all the time. I just have to keep telling myself it will all be over soon and it will pay off in the end. It's a lot of work; not that I'm complaining. I guess I am, but in the grand scheme of things, I'm not. lol

I saw Gerry on the Tonight show the other night. Like I've said everywhere else, Gerry nearly gave me a heart attack before I realized he was being sarcastic. I hate when he does that. lol Let's hope he's telling the truth. He sounded so ominous when he was being sarcastic, that I kind of question it. Not like I can do anything about it either way, but there you go. lol

My life is basically school right now. I eat, breathe and sleep school. Literally. I've been having dreams lately that I have a baby, gave birth to a baby, which I do not in real life, and I read somewhere in a dream dictionary when you dream that, you're really dreaming about all the new beginnings in your life that you're creating. At least my dreams are all positive. lol I keep having that dream too. The only reason I found it in the dream dictionary is because it's been a reoccuring theme in my dreams. I was beginning to think I could be pregnant, which, if you knew my sex life, or even my dating life, you'd know it would have to be an Immaculate Conception these days, but I know, that's too much info. hahaha

Which brings me to a whole other level. My friend recently got married in May and now she's talking about having a baby. Which is cool, I don't begrudge her that, but, she has an 'ovulation calendar' on her public myspace, and now she wants to have an open conversation about her sex life. I want her to have kids, I think, but I don't want to know all the details. I'd rather have my own interesting sex life instead of hearing about hers, thanks. I was the only one of her friends that openly told her that they don't want to hear it, because I know there has to be others that just haven't said anything, and she takes offense to it. It's just ridiculous. I don't care what kind of sex life you have, you really could care less about your friend's sex life. It makes no difference to you. I said my piece. lol

Possibility

2009-06-25T13:56:50Z

I finished my first class last night and next week on Wednesday night I start my next one. It will be about "Organizational Behavior." I am surprised that the five weeks of class went by so quickly, you would think that it would be longer. So that's what's new with school.

I have been on eHarmony for about three months and I met a guy in the last, I don't know, week and a half? We'll call him Surfer Boy, since he's in California. We seem to have a lot in common. It's really kind of weird, actually. I have been recieving a lot of communication recently, from men on eHarmony. I've noticed too that the men that they are matching me with now have way more in common with me than when I first began. Maybe by trial and error and the 'close match' button, they've learned what I sort of like. I could stop with Surfer Boy actually. He's a practicing Catholic, wants a woman who is practicing too, he's really funny, and kind, and has character, and is understanding. We both write books to each other when we email. I have a very good feeling about him, if I didn't I wouldn't be mentioning him. So keep me in your good thoughts and prayers, will you? It would be awesome to meet someone that compatible with me.

You know when you see the eHarmony commercial come on tv, and you want to gag they are so happy? I'm not so nauseated by that commercial anymore. lol

Let's Get This Party Started

2009-06-10T08:02:21Z

Well, our group finally started to say, "hey, we actually have to finish this project," and started emailing each other. Gee, you think? Then one delegated resposibility, which I'm grateful for; I know I tried. Then I realized that the question I had to answer had twelve parts! So I still ended up with the majority of the work. I passed along the responsibility of typing the paper and working on the power point to someone else. When they see how much work I had to put in to just answering the question--three single spaced pages later--they will understand that one of them should pick up the slack. The rest just had one maybe two paragraphs. I don't know how I got stuck with the heavy load, but I did. The upside though is, I learned a lot, and I realized just how much I want to be a therapist to help others. So that was the plus. I still have a little bit more on my individual projects tomorrow, but nothing like the work of last week. So things are evening out.

Eyes On Your Own Paper, Please.

2009-06-08T06:35:23Z

I made it through my first week of class! Just barely, but I did it. Go me.

This week, due on Wednesday night, we have to do two individual projects and one group one. That's why I'm posting. We have to watch When a Man Loves a Woman. My group has to analyze the kids and answer questions. We have to give a presentation as well. The plan was to meet up this afternoon at a library, but I was the only one to show up. One is on vacation, one had a sinus infection, and the other never gave a reason. It's due on Wednesday night! It's very frustrating. Then, the one who had a cold said she didn't go because of that cold and she wanted notes, the thing I was thinking was: "if you expect me to earn your degree for you, you're nuts." This is the same person who last week contributed all of two sentances to the group project. I actually wrote/typed our project, and while I used what the other woman in our group contributed as well, it took a lot of time, and work. I asked this person if she liked her individual project, she basically shrugged me off and said, "Oh, I got that done days ago." I can tell you why she finished it days ago; she was barely involved in the group project! I'm not going to let her do that again, and the teacher will hear from me about it if she tries to claim my work as her own and she gives as much effort as she did last week.

While I was at Blockbuster I rented Revolutionary Road, and the rest of season one of TrueBlood. Hopefully it will spark some interest in the series. I guess the actor who plays Bill is British. I'd much rather hear his real accent than the fake one.

One Man Still Alludes Me

2009-06-06T06:20:46Z

I was on facebook like fifteen minutes ago. I searched a guy I used to know. He was there, smiling back at me. We were always close friends, and then he moved away for college and now he's back in town, has been for a while. We both seemingly moved on, well, he did at least. When I was friends with him, he was the one guy I wasn't reading into. Women understand this. But, I really took what he said at face value, and didn't look any farther. Now, as I look back, well for a couple of years now, I wonder if he did think of me as more than a friend. Not that it matters now, but I miss having him in my life. I am doing a lot to change my life right now, and I wonder, when all the changes finally start appearing on the outside, if he'll find out about it. The thing is, I always wonder about this guy. When I knew him, he could never keep a relationship longer than two months, and he's a great catch, not just a biased opinon either. He wanted a long term relationship, or so he said, but he never seemed to have one. I've talked to him on and off for years now, and he's never had anyone that significant in his life. It just seems strange that he's never been in a serious relationship, not really. And I know what you must be thinking, he's not gay. I'm pretty clear on that, at least I think I am. lol He would have told me, I believe. He was my best friend at one point, and we told each other everything. I miss him so much. I don't know what to do with it. I mean, I've tried to move on and not let it get to me, but there will always be feelings there. I don't know if they are romantic feelings; I just always felt taken care of around him. I miss him, but I don't know how to tell him. I'll have to wait and see, I guess. I didn't know how good I had it until he slowly faded away from my life.

Toto, We're not in Kansas Anymore.

2009-06-05T23:53:03Z

My nieces, especially my 15 year old niece, are all excited about Twilight. They finally watched the movie, which frankly I'm surprised about it because my their parents are so strictly conservative. Now they want to read the books. My sister is all nervous about it because of the vampires and wolves; she's afraid of the influence they might have. I guess that's not such a bad thing to be concerned with actually. Our parents raised us Catholic, strict Catholic even, and they knew we knew what they expected of us, and what our faith and morals were, and so, my mom, if I was 15, wouldn't have even have thought about me seeing it. She would know that I knew what was expected of me. I'm not saying it's wrong to be concerned, but, trust what's been taught.

That of course, doesn't change the amount of anticipation my neices have to read the books. They are going to read it as a family, outloud, a chapter a night, so that they can be monitored. That will be interesting.

I don't have a problem with the way my sister mothers her kids, she's doing a great job, but, this isn't Sesame Street...there are bad people out there, bad situations, and while these characters do not exsist, I believe that my neices have to know what's out there so that they can defend themselves if they have to. I totally believe in being Christian, Catholic, a good person, and you should watch what you watch and read because what fills your mind is what you are going to give back, but at the same time, have some faith that they will know what they are doing. If all the time the only bad things that happen are out there, how are they going to deal with it? My neices, or at least the one, has a huge issue with that scene in Bella's bedroom, and Edward stops himself. Most people would think, he stopped himself, and nothing happened...my neice is thinking, 'omg, he kissed her and they almost...! (she's the one that doesnt finish that sentance lol) And then he stayed the whole night! How can he do that? that's not right." Would I want my child's boyfriend staying the night in her room? No, but at the same time, I think Stephenie could have taken the opposite road and she didn't, and I think teens need to see that you don't have to give in. I don't know, I thought it was different that Edward was the one who didn't want to take things further, not because he didn't want to, but because it wasn't time yet.

So I am debating whether or not to tell them any more about the series. They saw the New Moon trailer, and of course they have a million questions. The biggest one being, 'so, he really doesn't come back?" I say, "I'm not going to tell you if he does or not, you'll have to wait until you read it."

After Twilight

2009-05-10T04:05:25Z

Bear with me as I figure my layout...

About a month ago, I wanted to get my nails done. I met a 'nail technician.' We didn't have much to talk about, so I decided to ask her what books and movies she's been reading an seeing. She told me that she's been reading The Sookie Stackhouse Novels, and those books are what the HBO series TruBlood is based on. She asked me if I read Twilight. I told her I just finished the series, and I have been having a hard time finding another series to be interested in. Sure, I have read novels, even good ones, after I finished reading Breaking Dawn, but nothing like the experience I had with Twilight. She suggested I read these novels. I asked her what the difference between the Twilight vampires and the TruBlood vampires and she said, "well...these vampires actually have sex..a lot of it." To which I said, "oh, so very different." I was intrigued, because let's face it, we all could use more of Book One of Breaking Dawn if we're honest. Well, maybe I'm one of the only brave ones to actually admit it, in public. I should have taken into account how different this manicurist is to me. She's a nice person, but, we are completely different people. So, I was thinking, as I did with Twilight, that I would buy the set of this series, because I would want to read it consecutively, and why not buy the set? lol I bought it and started to read. I wasn't sure what I thought of it. Then I happened to cross paths with the series, and I had read enough to get to Episode 3, I guess, and it made the books easier to read, but...I guess I should say that it's set in Bon Temps, Lousiana, and they all have very thick Southern accents. It's just totally different from Twilight. I mean, the main vampire is named Bill. Bill! Even Sookie--which isnt pronounced like it is in Gilmore Girls, in case you're wondering--more like Sucky than Sookie. The main actor, the actor playing Bill isn't that hard to look at, until he opens his mouth. He doesn't have to be Edward Cullen, I realize that, but Bill and Edward are total polar opposites of each other. Has anyone else read the series, or watched the show on HBO? I need your thoughts on this. Would you be more inclined to read it because you loved Twilight so much? I don't even know if I want to finish the series to be honest. I like Sookie, which is funny, I didn't like Bella, but I am having a hard time with the Southern accents. I'm not used to them. What does anyone else think?

Among Other Things

2009-05-04T05:29:59Z

Ok, so I know I haven't been here in a while. It's not because I haven't had anything to say, well that's not exactly true, I just didnt know how to say it.

I've made a huge decision in my life, even bigger than going back to get my degree, and only mischa8 on my friend's list, well besides my best friend, knows what that decision is. Because this is a public place, all I'll say is it will change my life, and be a huge change, but all for the best. I'm kind of nervous yet impatient about it. It will happen in July or August, supposedly, right before my birthday in September, and then everything will start getting better and better everyday, at least in that department.

Right now I'm watching the Golden Girls. As you probably know, Bea Arthur died last week. All the women on that show were apart of my childhood, as I'm sure they were apart of yours, even if at that time, the jokes were way over my head. Since it's been in syndication, since like 1996, I have been watching the old episodes, so many times, all it takes is a couple of lines to know which episode they're on. Of course now, I get the jokes, but when I first started watching it again, I was kind of surprised how raunchy it was. When I was ten, they weren't as sexual. lol My family makes fun of me that I watch it all the time, and even in the back of my mind I think I've seen them enough times, but I have yet to find another sitcom I enjoy more.

I'm still watching The Tudors. I'm on the last disc of season two. I don't know whether or not I should wait to see season three or just start watching it on Showtime. At the end, I almost feel sorry for Anne Boelyn because all she did, at least in the show, was love him and wanted to give him a son, but then he goes and uses the same lines to Jane Seymour that he used on her. I cracked up laughing, you should have heard me, when she said that he wasn't good in bed, and that he couldn't have male heirs. He had it coming. lol Those were the greatest lines in the whole series so far. SO FUNNY! lol She did have it coming since she broke up the true marriage, so she shouldn't be shocked when he cheats on her, but in the end it was just pitiful. I was glad to see her father go though. He seemed to care more about the power he was given than his children, but that's how it is I guess. All my friends laugh at me when I say I watch it. They're like, "Are you a practicing Catholic? Isn't it about how he was excommunicated from the Church and how he started his own?" To which I say, "Yes, but I find myself yelling at the screen, "Woot, woot, we're still here! You obviously didn't do much!" lol I don't know, it amuses me. I'm weird that way. lol

On a side note, Jonathan Rhys Meyers looks so much better with the goatee, oh my gosh. Not as androgenous. He has beautiful eyes though, but a tad creepy. Maybe with his regular Irish accent he might be a little less androgenous, I don't know. His eyes have always freaked me out, to tell the truth. Henry Cavill is soo cute. lol Everytime he comes on the screen, I'm like, "he's so cute!" Another British guy to add to my collection. lol (Side Note: Jason Statham needs to do less action movies--In the Name of the King had so much promise, and then nothing, just action. I was left kind of bummed. lol) I don't know, I guess you have to be there. The actress who plays Jane Seymour, is so pretty, Annabelle Wallis, not that Natalie Dormer, Anne Boelyn, isn't striking herself. I don't know, Disney makes you think being a princess or a queen is so glamorous, but really it's just a title, and not that easy or from the looks of it, romantic. Hopefully one princess or queen had true love in her life--Princess Diana certainly didn't when she was alive with Prince Charles.

The Tudors

2009-04-19T08:39:06Z

A week or two ago I was flipping through all my cable channels, I have a few of them, when I started watching The Tudors on Showtime. It's about King Henry VIII and that time period. After I finished watching the first episode of the third season, I wanted to start at the beginning. I went to Blockbuster, and of course, the first two discs of season one were rented. I really wanted to see it. So, when I was at Best Buy the other day, I just bought the first two seasons. My best friend, cheribaby71, and I have a habit of having a marathon of series watching. We did it with Gilmore Girls, and Nip/Tuck, and now The Tudors. I also bought The Reader, by the way as well.

Anyway, I was walking out of the store, and I realized that everything I buy these days has to do with foriegn men. Like I should marry someone with an accent because that's all I'm interested in seemingly these days. I laughed quietly as I walked to my car. I don't know, I was amused.

The first thing you notice about The Tudors is that all the characters have sex with anything that moves. The second thing you notice is, Jonathan Rhys Meyers has a hot body, and obvious workout sessions. Oh, and he has beautiful eyes. A little creepy looking, but beautiful. Not Gerry, but still pretty. (I always find a way to link Gerry to everything, don't I? lol) What guy do I think is sexy? I think I've narrowed it down, especially since Jonathan is a little too androgynous to me, is the king's sister's lover. What's his name? I think he's his best friend, not Thomas More. Thomas More turned into a saint you know--they even had a comment about how he wasnt a saint yet. Something like that. Oh, I think the character's name is Charles Brandon, and the actor is Henry Cavill. So cute. lol (Oh, side note, he lost out to Rob Pattinson for Harry Potter: Goblet of Fire. Small world.)

A lot has happened this week--the most intersting is I found out two of my nephews are moving to Scotland. I told my oldest nephew that if he ever ran into Gerry, to tell him his aunt likes him. I'm sure Gerry hears these things all the time. It's a little joke between my nephew and I. I think they are moving there by June 1st, so it's very soon. It's all surreal. I would tell you what else happened this week, but since this journal is public, and you don't want to know all the gory details, I'll just keep it at that.

I feel so much better!

2009-03-28T06:06:45Z

About an hour ago, I woke up from a four hour nap. I passed out when I got home from work. I was sooo exhausted. lol

Sam Bradley sings it, obviously, a little different from Rob Pattinson, but I really like this version as well. I don't know who's version I like more. lol They are both nice. I think they cowrote the song together. Oh, they are longtime friends, in case you're wondering. Sam, I guess, has an album coming out, and you can see why. Still waiting for Rob to have an album. hahaha

I just found this on Comedy Central. I laughed so hard. He's really funny! lol Check out the related videos. You won't be sorry. :)